last friday of 2011

Last friday of 2011!
that is really fast isnt it?
but i still hope im a graudate this year.
anyway, finally got myself a new pair of spectacles from my friend.
have been wearing the old one for almost 5 years !!
it was a very shitty spec.
just realized my taste was so bad while i was in form 5 =X
has been really long eh?
i seldom wear spec except when im at home.
but i really wish to get myself a pair of black plastic frame spec .
as the black plastic spec fashion trends is not fading after so many years.
some people even buy the black spec without lens.



bought 2 pairs of new shoes !! super nice + comfy + wallet friendly !!
supposed to choose one of them but ended up buying bot2 of them.
it was so hard to choose you know as i really like both!
after considering that it was hard to get a red shoes that i like, so i choose the red one.
heheeee ! it was a brilliant decision !!
why?? because my mum liked the brown one!!
so i ended up buying both shoes!! new strategy was learned while shopping with mum =p

Im back

finally im free to update. l
actually I havent been THAT busy but most of my time were spent on watching dramas ><

i really like to stay at home and watch all the nice dramas throughout the whole day, of cuz with some chips/lollies.

btw, im back to my lovely hometown.

but dont feel like going out cuz of my fringe.

it's freakin short which makes me look dumb T_T
i cut it myself without any hesitation cuz i was sick of the damaged hair.
couldnt tolerate it for a sec.
i will nv ever step into that saloon anymore.
i thought i could cut all the damaged hair and the new ones will grow to the same length within 3 months, but i was wrong :(

sigh... dye + perm=gone ><
considering how short my hair is, the damaged hair is still not gone completely. (sighhhh)

i believer it still need at least another 2 months ><

but one good thing is that my hair is not tangled that bad anymore.
i can comb it after i cut all the dry hair now.

but i believer after 2 weeks, they are gonna be tangled again.

anyway, this is my favourite month of the year, its X'mas!

gonna attend xmas party in my aunt's house as usual. cant wait!

just realized i have been at home for 4 days . time flies.

i dont wanna go back to Melby ><

04122011

Bigger than my "refugee camp"

Been busy like a bee recently

just came back from Moe.

At first, when i knew i have to go kampung for 10 days,

i regretted to choose this topic for my research but then after a few weeks,

i started to think it is a good opportunity for me to explore a new place,

to get to know how a rural place is, plus the accommodation is provided.

i should be happy!

and yea, after a week in Moe, im glad i have chosen this topic for my research

even though i waited for 45 mins just to catch a bus to their market lol.

was wondering is the bus even coming at all and i didnt know what stop i was at.

ppl that passed by in car were looking at me weirdly . lol maybe it is my problem.

so i waited for 45 mins for a 5mins trip to the market. -.-

ppl there are friendly and nice. i think the biggest problem is transport.

if you have a car, it is definitely not a problem to stay at rural place.

but if not, the bus is coming every hour till 6pm on mon to sat

and every 2 hours on sunday.

the worst is if you miss the bus, you have to stay for an hour or 2 hours at the bus stop

there is no place for you to wander around near the stop so dont even need to think about it. :[
but overall it was a really good experience and really enjoyed it!

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my eye make up done by you <3

Always thought this would only happen in dramas.

never expected it to happen around me. somemore the fren im close with.

No matter how many times i saw and heard from anyone, anywhere,

i still cant believe the truth that you have left us

i used to sleep over in your house everytime when i got back.

sleep together, talk till morning and so the next day trip had to be cancelled cuz we didnt sleep for a night.

however, this tradition stopped when you found out you were sick last year.

you stopped replying my msg. i know you need some time to accept the truth.

and most of the time you and me are not in jb., we didnt meet for a year.

you know what, i havent had any company to a hair saloon since u became sick.

so i have to do it in kampung and yea my hair is spoilt now.

you are the only one who will bring me to the nice saloon,

we could decide to go for a make over of our hair out of sudden while we were shopping.

you are the one who made me look better, taught me how to make up and which make up/ hair product is good.

you are the one to talk to when im in a cross road on choosing my course or else i might not be doing pharmacy at monash right now.

and the news i got from others were that you were recovering slowly.

i never expected this would be happen. i couldnt accept it, i still cant.

i heard you are pretty there. and i believe you will be the prettiest angel in heaven.

RIP my fren.

you are always on my mind, and will always be. love you.

23112011

This post is dedicated to my dearest housemate.

she left for her hometown last night.

this is what she gave me . super adorable yea? jing got the blue one and jenni got the green one.

havent name him/her. will come out with a nice one soon

too bad, one of the gifts i bought for jessie didnt arrive on time and it was sent to my old add.it has been 25 days. i wonder what kinda mailing service they use. super duper slow..

didnt mange to give it to jess. sigh.. and i dunnoe whether i can get it from the new tenant or not.anyway, all i wanna say is thank you !!

thanks for being my housemate, tolerating every all the bad habits of mine.

take away food for me during exam, selling furniture, argueing with agents.

can you imagine we paid for about aud700 for cleaning??? how unreasonable are they .

this make me dont feel like moving out from SHA anymore. at least i know the cleaning in SHA is under aud200

going to gipsland this week. never been to country side before. kinda excited tho.hopefully the accomodation wont be dodgy. damn i hope there is at least a restaurant beside should off to do some research.

LAstly,

all the best Jess ! hope u earn as much as u can!! (can anyone help how to get rid of the double spacing? =[)

Exam is over

finally !! exam is over !!

and im glad that i passed my calculation quiz.

so stressed about it even though it is not hard but you have to make sure you get at least 80%!!

been really really busy in the past few weeks.

moving house, settle electricity /water/gas

the worst is when im trying to contact with these ppl, with poor reception of my mobile service in my new house. that was really annoying.

have spent a lot paying cleaning, repairing, breaking contract etc in order to move into new place.

sigh....i dont see why they need to charge me so much. it really makes no sense.

it's so ridiculous.

new place is really small , just like a refugee camp.

i will take a pic of my wardrobe and you will know why i said so.

its so pity on the first day when i just moved it and had all my stuff on the floor.
the door got stuck i could barely go in or out.
i need to move the stuffs around everytime i need to open that door.
just like solving puzzle, cool eh?
really need to make space esp for my study table.

have to settle down before my research starts!
gambateh!

Exam week

how could I not hate you November!
it is the worst month for most students isnt it!!
exam fever is on!!!

just a quick update !

1 down and 3 more to go (including the open book prac + calculation test)

as usual, the hardest one to me has always been my 1st paper.

but now im starting to think the hardest one is my second paper- neurology and oncology

lol....too much thing to understand and memorize.

i got very very bad mark in both of my tutuorials.

thank to 2 very strict tutors in both my tute.fml.

just hope to get a D for my neuro !!

pls grant me an altraabosrptive brain.

supposed to study now. but im so tired.

so here i am ><

looking forward to the period after exam !!

jiayou pharm ppl !! fighting!!

swot vac

im not supposed to blog now or edditing photos...
picture was taken on last day of uni 2011.
should take more photos in uni before i grad !
i just cant concentrate on my study these few days...
sigh ..what to do ??
anyway gd luck to my paper !! hopfeully i can do well!!

week 12

finally, last week of uni !!

gonna finish another semester!!

sad that i still have 2 more semesters to go but im looking forward to it

because i will be having less units !!

i really want to enjoy my life next year.

i need a change.

I dont want to get stuck in my room everyday.

lifes been busy advertising, replying mail/call recently regarding my apartment and furniture.

so happy it paid off!

got a msg saying that these 2 guys are taking over my apartment and some of my furniture.

since i will be moving during the exam period, i dont really have time to move the furniture around.
its best that they just take everything so that I can save time and make use of all of them to study.

hopefully!

anyway final is in 2 weeks time.

mix feelings again cuz i know i have to face it no matter how im worried and scared and refuse to study.

dear god,

pls make me study at all time.

pls let me sleep well. no insomnia NO NO !!

planning to go to church next year. any suggestions which to go ?

i have been wanting to go to one since my 1st year in aus but then i failed to keep it up.

busy busy!!

btw, not sure if you believe it or not.

i did pray quite often and it did work most of the time!!

sometimes it didnt work but at least praying did calm me down always.

heeehee ! thanks god!

08102011

Went to Mel's engagment party yesterday !!
freaking tired yet i still stayed up till 3am to watch "the Musical" hahax.
been checking over and over to see when it 's gonna be updated to pptv in the morning till i went out. but too bad it was not till i got back from the party.
there's a lot of "frens" that got married recently or few years ago.
most are primary or secondary sch mates and ive nv been to one's wedding dinner
apparently, im not that close to them.. i saw fb pics..ppl tagging each others..
super envy mel !!

so long nv wear dress. it's a pretty plain dress tho.
and it's a bit short for me...hmmm always have this problem with free size dresses ><
not that im saying im tall but you have to be careful for most of the time even tho u wear something inside.
was so tempting to wear my new heels. but no no cuz it was way of too far from my house.
i didnt wanna walk so for long in heels unless i got someone whos willing to wait for me no matter wat.
i miss my gals. most likely they wear heels more often than me ..
i always wondered why gals like heelss? millions of WHY?
some frens can spend thoundsands on a pair of heels.
i didnt get it...
but now i know. i adore 5 inches heels now.



ended this post with taylor's concert in melby.
cant wait for my first concert in life.
yea i know im pretty kampung.im 23 and ive never been to one before.
looking forward to it!

drama

Im so obsessesed with this drama- the musical.

grr i like the leading actor and actress (damn pretty lah )..

i wouldnt say the the leading actor -Daniel Choi is handsome but grrrr but his smile kills me.

i used to like thin and tall guys without muscle..

maybe ive grown up now?? since now prefer a little muscular, and not too thin one..

just like daniel choi!

it's so sweet to see a guy gets panic/worried when he sees the gal he likes is meeting the another guy isnt it?

it happened in the drama!!

and there's a lot, a lot of sweet scenes.

i wonder does all this even happen in real life??

it is good to be an actor/actress isnt it?

break??

went to bff's graduation in clayton..
luckily i had someone to go with me or else i would have been lost !! thanks !
and sorry for not picking up my phone..cuz i realli didnt expect u to be done in 20mins.
anyway, bought bff a graduate bracelet in 2011 !!
though she never wears necklace or even a watch but then i still feel like giving this to her.
cuz its memorable in my opinion.
it is on my wishlist for next year!! hehe !!
i plan to ask my parents to get one for me but then i could actually buy it myself here using their money.
so doesnt really make any difference does it? hahax...
anyhow, im glad that someone has promised to buy me a panasonic GF series camera for my grad pressie next year!!
i long for it for a year already god!
hopfeully she wont break the promise ! #write it down here, black and white =p#
anyway congratz to my bff!! i think she is going to grad in jun next year again.
why so fast?? i havent even finished 1 degree... ><

straight or curl??? it would be much nicer if i have a brighter colour and longer hair yea?

1st time during my 5 year studies here without going out a full day with frens in a break.
fml!!
so i went out this morning.
been stucked in forever new for 2 hrs. lol..
and then ended up with this pretty heels.super comfy and steady .
unlike the old one i got.. does look cute but it can really HURT =x
still thinking whether i should get the dress or not ><

hmmm money money

French night 10092011

me with Huge pimples =(


This looks tempting but too bad im not alcoholic.
our entreess

Overdue post ..
been really really busy recently...
i dont even get sufficient sleep everyday...
which might be the reason why im having sore throat now..
quizs over, tuts over..
then breaks, case studies, test and assignment are coming..
arghhh...
why cant i have a REAL break without worries?
i know it is impossible tho...
I shall have a life soon.. maybe after this sem.. maybe.. or am i dreaming i dunno

ok talk about the french night..
we were late for half an hour cuz we were lost.
BIG sorry to andi,mel and louisa..

well the night was pretty cold and windy
and I didnt wear any stockings! was really cold ttm
pretty shocked when i see the menu b/c i couldnt find anything chicken !!
lol fyi i eat chicken, prawn (if i dont have to peel off its skin), certain fishy and thats about it.
no pork no lamb no steak...
fine, i know im a super picky gal when it comes to eating....
but there's no one out there who'd understand how i feel..
for example.. i cant drink the water if the water has the "water smell".
i dont eat the chicken if it has the "chicken smell".
does this make sense???
hmmmm ..
but luckily i managed to find the only dish- fish fillets...
thanks god..
environment and services were great.
food is quite average to me probably i dont realli like french food.
i prefer asian food anyway.

then, went to a bar on Swanston after dinner.
trying to make myself to be a alcoholic but too bad i failed (again).
i got the lightest drink but couldnt even finish half of the bottle ..
i just dont like the smell..
i really envy those ppl who can drink and get high or wateva...
cuz i have never been able to get to that stage before and forget all the troubles...sob

before i end this post,
pls let me know if you have friends looking for an apartment around parkville campus !!
im moving out in mid nov. hopefully someone can take over my furniture..
will post up link or photos soon.
thanks !!

week 6

waffle at passion flower...really too expensive ..

7 scoops of ice cream for breakfast @ Movenpick Westfield Doncaster before heading to Taipan ..

ended up we couldnt eat much at Tai pan..what a waste ><

btw we were celebrating jenny bday !!

thanks for fetching us up and down !!

Tutti after yoga class...

come to the end of week 6

half of the sem gone! wohoo!!

been really busy recently.

working + study isnt fun at all.

+++ im working at 2 places.

and i dont get paid from one of the places =(

test, assignments,tutorial are coming and lectopias are pilling up.

what to do. im so tired after 8 /10 hrs of standing.

my legs and back are in great pain.

cant wait for my sem break even i know i'll be stuck with my assignment.

but at least no lectopias.

i know comparing to some of my friends, they are having a much tougher semester

they have more units, work than me but they are also a lot smarter than me.

i need more time to cope with my studies.

so bear with all the complaints i said.

24hrs a day just aint enough.

my skin is deteriorating again..

antibiotic is finished

whats left are topical solution and cream.

sigh ... i swear im gonna use Roaccuttane if my skin still wont get well.

i feel embarrassed to go out with my face.

why is my life so miserable ><

week 5

Life is getting busy recently.

4th year ppl are back... its gonna be a lot of time spent on lectopiasss

i can no longer be up to date to the lectopias like i used to be

im lazy now ><

and my insomnia is getting worse recently.

antihistamine doesnt help anymore. what to do during exam period?

wondering whether its time to visit a doc. for some prescription meds?

alright i need to stop talking and thinking about the negatives now before the eager feeling of wanting to go back to Malaysia and giving up my studies.

the good news is i got myself a job..
although its just a casual worker position,
its good to keep myself out of my little room, making friends and make myself tired so that
i can have a really nice sleep at night. (not always work tho)
besides, i got to earn some money and experience and less time to be homesick.

i have to admit im pretty lucky this time.

it's not easy to get a job in pharmacy now ..

thank god!!
and thanks to my friends around me who gave me lots and lots of courage in the process of searching for a job.

it has been a while since i last uploaded a photo of my babygal

she was practising her falsies with me (indicate how bored i m at home )

mickey is da love.

i wanna use it now!!
but it 's in malaysia at the moment (sad :()><

week 4 of uni

what have I been doing during week 4??

it was pretty boring. but the following weeks will be busy and busy ...

sigh... miserable life is going to start soon.

got my placement name badge and workbook even though im not having placement this year.

i kinda like the name badge.. yea i know it's ntg special.

but it's my 1st working name badge that somehow looks professional to me ..

maybe not professional..but maybe a "proper" one?

i smell chocolate now! hahax..am blogging with chocolate mask on my face..

smells nice! thx pig lah !! u know i needed it.

im not asking for tofu skin but just zero acne skin.

that's wat im asking for now.

after that i should really use whitening product.

my skin is getting darker and darker..

i want fair fair skin !

playing with my make up in the afternoon.

since i really have ntg to do.

practicing my bottom eyeliner and falsies.

looks pretty success in the pic rite??

but one thing for sure, i think my eyeliner skill is getting better.

clap clap !!. i should really be more hardworking.

pretty girl are every where.. seriously i dunnoe where should i stand.

browsing lengluis in instagram, wondering when can i have my double eyelid and braces done??

now im thinking to have more "things" done to my face ..

im bad i know. girls are never satisfied of their own looks, never and ever.

im a shopaholic. even im in melby i still can shop in malaysia,sg, uk ><

bad bad habit. but shopping is the only way to relieve all my stress and homesickness.

yea so im glad to have frens,cousin (sometimes my dad, lol) to help me get what i want in everywhere. i really scare to miss the stuffs that i wanna buy ><

that's really bad !!

but thansk god , i have u guys.

thank so much..i love u all !!

110811

life isnt treating me well.

I didnt expect I would be so unhappy for this return.

not many frens left in melbourne.

studies are getting harder.

whats worse is that i got a penalty assignment to do because of a compulsory lecture which in my opion, is quite useless.

who would remember this lecture is compulsory.

i actually went there but she doesnt let me sign the attendance sheet since i was fairly late.

and so i got a penalty assignment. not happy :(

i rushed there under rain but still couldnt make it to sign the paper

fml.fml.fml.fml.

i just hope she will give us a chance as there was no reminder at all.

who would rmb this is compulsory since its no different than any other usual lecs.

i know its my fault to miss the lecture. but pls i dont think it is reasonable to apply a penalty assignment for 1st offence. you didnt even give a chance or reminder.

i spent all my time in a tiny room with my laptop.

this is my life here. it wasnt that great as ppl thougth actualli.

and im glad my mum does understand. and this phrase is actually came out from her.

thank god she understands the loneliness i have here.

Being a pharmacist was once my dream but it is a nightmare to me now.

i know comparing to most students, mine is getting easier and easier cuz im taking less units.

i promise myself i would make a difference in life next year. hopefully.

look forward to exam now actually since i accept the truth that is a must before i head back to malaysia.
too bad i have my summer elective. i have to stay here for another month after exam

if the research starts in nov, which i wish.

i wanna go back to home. i miss home. :'(

It's all about pink

I have nothing to blog but since im so bored at home and wanting to do nothing else so here comes the new entry!

been emo and moody.. i dunno when this feeling would go away.

cuz it really made me become a useless person !!
i just refuse to do anything..

the most important thing - lectopia !!

anyway, since i have nothing to blog about,
i decide to blog about goods that i bought back in malaysia.

i really love this sandal!! it's so cute with that big bow!!

yea i know some of the ppl cant accept them but i still love it!
metallic pink makes it even more tempting!!

super adorable !!

It's pink again!!

love this 2 casing ttm!! but feels like the one im using is going to fall apart any minute soon.

is not my fault actually . it wasnt in a very gd condition when i 1st got it.

i bought it online so i dont have the chance to choose a nice one.

finally got myself a hard disc.

no longer need to back up my stuff in someone else's hard disc.

it doesnt look so "hot pink" in real but i kinda like it.

i think its the love shapes on the hard disc.
it doesnt show it in the photo but its full of loves on the surface actually!

btw the strawberry cloth below is not a table cloth or wateva.

it's a singlet. isnt it cute???

there 's other fruits as well like watermelon, pineapples(yucks)

ill end this post with a narcissistic shot :)

back to hell

back to the place of evil

idk why the feeling of wanting to go back is so strong and intense.

im sick of here.. or perhaps its not the place.
i really hate studying, as in really sick of it!

i would never be happi if i still have to study.

i was alrite at the airport.

but when i reached here my tears just burst out without any reason.

i just dunnoe why. i wanna go back.

i dont care how i was determined to do something before i head back to malaysia.

in another word i'd rather give up my dream.

if my parents allow me, i might just drop out from uni.

but i know i couldnt do this to them or even myself.

what i persist are gone.

i really hope this feeling is only because i still in holiday mood.

I feel even worse for not doing anything at all.

the worst is i tried to lectopia since i skip all the classes, and i cant even finish 1 properly in a day.

keep giving excuses. but it's friday now and i still havent finished even one.

what am i doing?? i really dunnoe.

seriously i rather drop out from the uni than ruining the result that i have now.
arghhhh

120711

taking same drugs as last time, but the night gel (Differin) has been changed to the cream(Brevoxyl)
my doc said:
Differin is way of too dry. My ears were peeling although i apply on my affected area on my face.
how powerful it is.
Brevoxyl is just nice.not too dry nor too moisturize. I havent seen the effect because i have only been using it for a week.
Hopefully they will work well and stop the growth of acne and scarring but it seems very likely in the near future.

results are out!!
i wont say i did it well but yea its better than what was expected since i lost quite a lot of marks in assignments and a test already (such as barely pass a 10 marks paper).
also in a paper there are 20 marks worth of questions that I couldnt finished in time, which i crapped shits out of the last 10 minutes praying i could get some marks with the random answers.
turned out the scores arent as bad as imagined. (think i got lucky this time)
Lesson learned. check watch on wrist before you head out to exam hall.
anyway, im happy enough since i didnt have high expectation in the first place
well i can really feel what they say is true
dont expect and you wont be disappointed.
yea im pretty ambitiousless..=p

080711

had Tutti frutti again!!
because i missed my dance class due to the sudden decision to have a BBQ.
and too bad original flavor was sold out (first time to me)
really really BAD TIMING!!
luckily they have promegranade flavor on that day at that store....
FYI, they change their flavor everyday in every store.
the 1st picture is the real promegranade fruit in case u dont know what it looks like.
i love this fruit! despite it looks as though it has got millions seeds :P

another impromptu decision to change my screen protector to this lovely hello kitty!!
it was a bit of a waste since i have only had my previous protector for like 1/2 months.
and i still got a brand new pearl blinking protector at home that i wanna try.
anyway i think this hello kitty is just for fun.
it wont last long i guess.

Finally got my fishy mouse !!
been hunting for this mouse for so long.
although the comfortable level is nothing like the one i use in Melby,
it 's really cute + i just use it in malaysia.


went to sg for shopping.
too bad i only managed to get a singlet.
but surprisingly got the sweet i have been craving for all the time
but the taste is not as good as the one i had in Genting arghhh

obviously this photo has been edited, just the fairness and lighting i think
try use the app morebeute2 and u will know what im saying.
my face is too awful to post up here without "pimple hiding process"
i just visited dermatologist, taking oral and topical antibiotic currently.
hopefully they will give some relieve.
expectation brings disappointment.
the most important part is my face is immune to any drugs and any skin products.
and i really dislike those auntie in watson or guardian,
asking me wanna try acne products or not.
come on, it's tolerable if u ask me once.
but it starts to get irritating when the same question is asked over and over again while i was trying to look for other products.
i know my skin is terrible without your kind reminderSSSSSSS
the effort i put on trying to rescue my skin is beyond ur imaginations





my toe nails are really ugly.
so i went to pedicure 2 weeks ago.
i still prefer the ladybird that i had few years ago.
that was my 1st pedicure i think.

result will be released soon. finger cross i wont see the grade i dont wanna see.
it will ruin my mood for sure.
but i feel kinda sad as my pp assignment grade is really low.
i know i wont do well this time but yea, still hoping i could at least maintain my grade.
I shall stop here. take care!