back to hell

back to the place of evil

idk why the feeling of wanting to go back is so strong and intense.

im sick of here.. or perhaps its not the place.
i really hate studying, as in really sick of it!

i would never be happi if i still have to study.

i was alrite at the airport.

but when i reached here my tears just burst out without any reason.

i just dunnoe why. i wanna go back.

i dont care how i was determined to do something before i head back to malaysia.

in another word i'd rather give up my dream.

if my parents allow me, i might just drop out from uni.

but i know i couldnt do this to them or even myself.

what i persist are gone.

i really hope this feeling is only because i still in holiday mood.

I feel even worse for not doing anything at all.

the worst is i tried to lectopia since i skip all the classes, and i cant even finish 1 properly in a day.

keep giving excuses. but it's friday now and i still havent finished even one.

what am i doing?? i really dunnoe.

seriously i rather drop out from the uni than ruining the result that i have now.
arghhhh

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taking same drugs as last time, but the night gel (Differin) has been changed to the cream(Brevoxyl)
my doc said:
Differin is way of too dry. My ears were peeling although i apply on my affected area on my face.
how powerful it is.
Brevoxyl is just nice.not too dry nor too moisturize. I havent seen the effect because i have only been using it for a week.
Hopefully they will work well and stop the growth of acne and scarring but it seems very likely in the near future.

results are out!!
i wont say i did it well but yea its better than what was expected since i lost quite a lot of marks in assignments and a test already (such as barely pass a 10 marks paper).
also in a paper there are 20 marks worth of questions that I couldnt finished in time, which i crapped shits out of the last 10 minutes praying i could get some marks with the random answers.
turned out the scores arent as bad as imagined. (think i got lucky this time)
Lesson learned. check watch on wrist before you head out to exam hall.
anyway, im happy enough since i didnt have high expectation in the first place
well i can really feel what they say is true
dont expect and you wont be disappointed.
yea im pretty ambitiousless..=p

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had Tutti frutti again!!
because i missed my dance class due to the sudden decision to have a BBQ.
and too bad original flavor was sold out (first time to me)
really really BAD TIMING!!
luckily they have promegranade flavor on that day at that store....
FYI, they change their flavor everyday in every store.
the 1st picture is the real promegranade fruit in case u dont know what it looks like.
i love this fruit! despite it looks as though it has got millions seeds :P

another impromptu decision to change my screen protector to this lovely hello kitty!!
it was a bit of a waste since i have only had my previous protector for like 1/2 months.
and i still got a brand new pearl blinking protector at home that i wanna try.
anyway i think this hello kitty is just for fun.
it wont last long i guess.

Finally got my fishy mouse !!
been hunting for this mouse for so long.
although the comfortable level is nothing like the one i use in Melby,
it 's really cute + i just use it in malaysia.


went to sg for shopping.
too bad i only managed to get a singlet.
but surprisingly got the sweet i have been craving for all the time
but the taste is not as good as the one i had in Genting arghhh

obviously this photo has been edited, just the fairness and lighting i think
try use the app morebeute2 and u will know what im saying.
my face is too awful to post up here without "pimple hiding process"
i just visited dermatologist, taking oral and topical antibiotic currently.
hopefully they will give some relieve.
expectation brings disappointment.
the most important part is my face is immune to any drugs and any skin products.
and i really dislike those auntie in watson or guardian,
asking me wanna try acne products or not.
come on, it's tolerable if u ask me once.
but it starts to get irritating when the same question is asked over and over again while i was trying to look for other products.
i know my skin is terrible without your kind reminderSSSSSSS
the effort i put on trying to rescue my skin is beyond ur imaginations





my toe nails are really ugly.
so i went to pedicure 2 weeks ago.
i still prefer the ladybird that i had few years ago.
that was my 1st pedicure i think.

result will be released soon. finger cross i wont see the grade i dont wanna see.
it will ruin my mood for sure.
but i feel kinda sad as my pp assignment grade is really low.
i know i wont do well this time but yea, still hoping i could at least maintain my grade.
I shall stop here. take care!

Gift from pig from Taiwan !! thanks =).. as my face is craving for masks...

never had enough ..lol..
Pig and ting

It doesnt taste like sze chuan at all ..it's not spicy at all.. dont be fooled by the dry chillies
have had tutti frutti 3 times in a week now..
and its really expensive!! =(
i felt so bad that i couldnt make it to watch transformers with ting and pig.
they even bought the ticket for me already!
at first the plan was i was going to sleep at tings place
so they bought a 12am ticket
but i ended up not sleeping at her place
so 12am show was definitely too late for me!
my parents would be mad if I go home that late (again :()
really feel bad to u guys! sorry!

idk why.. i have a bad bad feeling that holidays are gonna end soon..
in fact it's truth..
time really does fly!
i dont wanna go to uni (altho i dont actually do)..
i dont wanan do assignments, tests, exam, lectopias..
i am really really scared of study.. what to do =(